DUN DARRUN DUN DUNN DUNNNNN!!!

Prayer, such a mislead conception in today's society.
People say the same prayers everyday for it's their religion.
People pray amiss asking things to spend on their own pleasures.
And people just do it to talk to their Heavenly Father as a relationship.
Mislead people think of prayer as just an act of repentance. Some people actually do it for that.
Prayer can be used for asking God for His strength. But do we put the faith into action?
When we ask to do something in His honor, we need to respond with positive Christ-like actions.
Yeah it's hard. But it's all baby steps to becoming the man of God.

I was studying 1 Corinthians but I couldn't keep my eyes off of Proverbs. The wisdom is like delicious, mouth-watering food that keeps you hungry, an addicting food. I can't stay away. I love the wisdom Solomon wrote about. Each proverb is just another piece of God's understanding and discernment through His eyes.
But
If read without preparedness, it could lead to some confusion.

I've met some pretty wonderful people along this walk.
Some I've lost and some I've gained.
It's important to not get attached or to put your trust in man because...

Thus says the Lord:
"Cursed is the man who trusts in man And makes flesh his strength,
Whose heart departs from the Lord."

I would never deny anyone because of what they like or who they are, I just won't be like you.

We live for You.

A place for my head?

WHAT?!

So many things that I don't even want to deal with. Let's summarize!
PUBLIC SCHOOL
Not even, its just school in general because private school can be worse than public school because of its hypocrisy.

I'm really a joyful guy and so I always appear laughing, loud, and smiling.
I also tend to think a lot which allows me to go into deep thought a lot. When I am in deep thought, I'm rarely smiling.
SO I'M NOT DEPRESSED.
It gets really annoying because I have only experienced depression like 3 times in my whole life. Two from relationships. One from before I was a Christian.
That's funny, they were both bad things that lead me to depression. Worldly things. Obviously if you go through that stuff again, you will eventually find yourself even worse than before.

Anyways.

To state again, I am not a depressed man.
People always say "Be happy", "Smile Chris!", "Why are you always depressed?".
It has gotten to the point where it starting to bother me. Why don't you ask "Are you ok/alright?", "What's up?" Instead of just assuming or judging my state of being.
No I am not mad at anyone, I'm just stating what's burdening me.

I love how people constantly look for little things I do that they could use against me saying WWJD?! (What Would Jesus Do) or that's not Christian-like WHEN I do nothing.
It's gotten to the point from my messages to people of the Word to now they are trying to find things to completely paradox me and what I say.
I don't mind it because I'm supposed obtain an example of the One I live for.

I have learned I can't trust people even if they are Christians.
I have more problems with Christians than I do with gentiles.
Not everyone is going to like me.
Whatever, I'm friends with the One who created you all.
=]

So I heard about what happened to you today.
I'm almost glad.
Almost.

PUSH

As I walked down that badly plowed road, I walked into a tunnel of rememberence. I could feel that both my hands were occupied both had felt warm. Everything was as if it were a summer evening, with the sun about to set. The road was dry and warm. I no longer had a jacket, but a t-shirt.
My left hand was holding my ex which resembled my past. The right hand was holding Jesus' hand.
I kept walking and I remember being so happy with no worries.
A freezing windchill swept by out of nowhere and the present became known.
My left hand became cold and as I looked on that side of the path, I saw emptiness.
Throughout all the coldness, only one area kept warmth. Jesus was still holding my hand. Then all became warmth though it was freezing out.
That's how He works in our trials and tribulations, though it may be dark and cold, He can make all things better.
Above I can see my future, I saw but could not remember, stinks huh? But I believe it's just a reminder that there's much in stored for me, and all of my peers.

I live to the best of my ability to be a man of God, to follow and live and live by His word.
I separate myself from conversations that are not clean or even advising them not to talk about those things, from unrighteousness(I strive at least), and I try helping my fellow youth .
Conclusion?
They give me the "he thinks he's better than everyone else" feeling towards me. I'm not.
Nowhere near do I ever think that. I don't want that. I strive to be as humble as I can be.
That's that.

Now I love preaching and leading, it's in my heart and I know I love it and I'm not even that good at preaching yet. Therefore I know it's my place.
I want to fall in love with God this year, to have a deep intimate love with Him.
Now how come I met this person who catches my eye? I didn't want that, at least not when I'm not ready?
Is it an attack?
Is it a blessing waiting to happen?
So many questions still unanswered.
I always remember to PUSH
Pray
Until
Something
Happens
But some things are just left unsaid until the timing is right.
She seems great. But my focus needs to be elsewhere, therefore maybe it's a test.

"No temptation has overtaken you except such as is common to man; but God is faithful, who will not allow you to be tempted beyond what you are able, but with the temptation will also make the way of escape, that you may be able to bear it." -1 Corinthians 10:13

I wish I was good at somethings and not stupid to make the mistakes that I do, they finally lead me to be grounded for a month. Maybe this is the type of separation I need.

Time to PUSH and become a stronger man of God.