This will be my first mobile post.

It's been awhile and not much has been going on. The sense of lonliness has shown it's true colors and I think I'm finally able to bear it.

People tend to find me boring after awhile, not as much fun anymore. Why?
I'm always helping people, giving almost my all.
I'm just a kid.
I'm as nice as I try to be, even when I'm down.
I'm constantly now being pushed aside as a side dish. I'm their back-up.
I wish people cared as much as I did. But is that asking for too much?

I never hate anyone even if they destroy me from the inside out. I hate that.
I'm not "cool"
I'm not "fun"
I'm not "important"
People act as if I were their parents.

You could be the meanest person in the world and if you asked me for help or even a dollar, I would give it to you.
And to anyone who hasn't asked I am sorry I havn't reached out to you. I try to make everyone happy even when I'm not. Know that I have never ignored you.

But in all honesty, I'm starting not to care about my situation. I'm not asking you or you to change.
I'll always be here and you'll always be far from me even though you could only be 2 feet away.