PUSH

As I walked down that badly plowed road, I walked into a tunnel of rememberence. I could feel that both my hands were occupied both had felt warm. Everything was as if it were a summer evening, with the sun about to set. The road was dry and warm. I no longer had a jacket, but a t-shirt.
My left hand was holding my ex which resembled my past. The right hand was holding Jesus' hand.
I kept walking and I remember being so happy with no worries.
A freezing windchill swept by out of nowhere and the present became known.
My left hand became cold and as I looked on that side of the path, I saw emptiness.
Throughout all the coldness, only one area kept warmth. Jesus was still holding my hand. Then all became warmth though it was freezing out.
That's how He works in our trials and tribulations, though it may be dark and cold, He can make all things better.
Above I can see my future, I saw but could not remember, stinks huh? But I believe it's just a reminder that there's much in stored for me, and all of my peers.

I live to the best of my ability to be a man of God, to follow and live and live by His word.
I separate myself from conversations that are not clean or even advising them not to talk about those things, from unrighteousness(I strive at least), and I try helping my fellow youth .
Conclusion?
They give me the "he thinks he's better than everyone else" feeling towards me. I'm not.
Nowhere near do I ever think that. I don't want that. I strive to be as humble as I can be.
That's that.

Now I love preaching and leading, it's in my heart and I know I love it and I'm not even that good at preaching yet. Therefore I know it's my place.
I want to fall in love with God this year, to have a deep intimate love with Him.
Now how come I met this person who catches my eye? I didn't want that, at least not when I'm not ready?
Is it an attack?
Is it a blessing waiting to happen?
So many questions still unanswered.
I always remember to PUSH
Pray
Until
Something
Happens
But some things are just left unsaid until the timing is right.
She seems great. But my focus needs to be elsewhere, therefore maybe it's a test.

"No temptation has overtaken you except such as is common to man; but God is faithful, who will not allow you to be tempted beyond what you are able, but with the temptation will also make the way of escape, that you may be able to bear it." -1 Corinthians 10:13

I wish I was good at somethings and not stupid to make the mistakes that I do, they finally lead me to be grounded for a month. Maybe this is the type of separation I need.

Time to PUSH and become a stronger man of God.